Anyway, I'm here to wish all my readers, friends and family a Happy New Year!! May the new year bring you hope, love, health, happiness and new surprises! So enjoy the next
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!
Friday, January 1, 2010
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
A new year, a new beginning. Time to look back on 2009's resolutions, review them and make new ones. I'll not be making them yet, cause I'm going Malaysia in like...5 hours' time. Need sleep. Just back from Mount Faber (again) with Huiling this year. This year, the number of ppl tripled last year's, when I was there with Erin. It was so bad I had to park my car near the mid of Mount Faber and walk UPHILL 15min to get to Emerald Lodge. -_-"
Anyway, I'm here to wish all my readers, friends and family a Happy New Year!! May the new year bring you hope, love, health, happiness and new surprises! So enjoy the next365 364 days with good health!! =)
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!
Anyway, I'm here to wish all my readers, friends and family a Happy New Year!! May the new year bring you hope, love, health, happiness and new surprises! So enjoy the next
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
I'm Scared
Cinnamon has been shedding fur lately. ALOT of fur. And it's weird spots that she started shedding. Her neck has no more fur again. This time, it's more jialat. Even her face look thin and shrunken. I'm very worried for her. I'm afraid she'll leave me. Yesterday, I grabbed her face and told her angrily that she cannot leave me. She's not allowed to until I let her. But she looked worse than yesterday.
I tried applying the medicine that the vet had prescribed for her dandruff problem, but she knew what it was. It must be painful for her, cause she kept crouching in a corner of her cage and wouldn't come to me, no matter how I cajole her. I tried using her towel to cover her, but she started attacking and making noises. My heart is breaking right now, but I don't know what to do. Will call The Animal Clinic tomorrow morning to make an appointment. Will find Dr Hsu this time. The last vet sucks cause she's afraid of Cinnamon and wouldn't even touch her. Where got vet like that one?!
Buddha, please look after my Cinnamon can? I don't want to let her go. She's mine. She's only 5 years old!!!! Don't let her leave me please......
I tried applying the medicine that the vet had prescribed for her dandruff problem, but she knew what it was. It must be painful for her, cause she kept crouching in a corner of her cage and wouldn't come to me, no matter how I cajole her. I tried using her towel to cover her, but she started attacking and making noises. My heart is breaking right now, but I don't know what to do. Will call The Animal Clinic tomorrow morning to make an appointment. Will find Dr Hsu this time. The last vet sucks cause she's afraid of Cinnamon and wouldn't even touch her. Where got vet like that one?!
Buddha, please look after my Cinnamon can? I don't want to let her go. She's mine. She's only 5 years old!!!! Don't let her leave me please......
Friday, December 25, 2009
It's Not So Merry Afterall......
Merry Christmas everyone. This year there's no celebration at my house. No pressies this year. =( No getting drunk. No laughters around the house. Instead, just close to 1am, I cried. Didn't really cry cry, but I shed some tears.
Had a chat with one of my ex (my friends would probably start asking, which one?) and we started reminiscing about the past. Our past. I told him that Huix asked me how many serious bfs I actually have (minus those play play de from the total) and I told her less than 10. In my memory, my serious bf starts from Alvin (duno die where le. Think he appear infront of me I also can't remember, that's like 12 years ago leh) and ends with the most recent, Weifeng. Scary thing is, when this ex, let's name him L (after Light!! err..nvm, disgress le), asked how many bf I had after him, I was able to name Eggie and Kevin...but suddenly, I forgot Weifeng's name. And to think that Weifeng and L used to be schoolmates. Ya..apparently I've a thing for guys that come out from that sch and that batch, cause my 3rd bf was frm that school too..and so happens that all 3 know each other!! WOW! Hahahahaha. Singapore is small lah ok.
Anyway, he started shedding tears. He's not those type to cry. Although we dated for a very, very short time (6mths), I was rather serious with him. He made me feel like a protected woman, that I could depend on him...NOT. During our relationship, we never quarreled. The only time we quarreled ended up in a breakup. Cause he was in the army, and he left me waiting for him the whole day on Sat, just to tell me at 8pm that he's not meeting me at all!! KNN. LoL. But shortly we broke up, I hooked up with Eggie. And L wanted me back...after a month of hiatus. I got back with L, not telling either bf that I'm attached. I just wanted to get back at L for treating me that way. He wouldn't even buy me flowers on Vday lor!! But he did gave me a pair of earrings with diamonds on it (which sadly, I duno where is it now). Know something? Good memories are more than bad memories. He did infact, leave a very deep impact on my life. He was the first bf that I wanted to settle down and get married to. He was the first one that we were jokingly discussing about marriage. He was ready to settle down. =)
In the end we broke up, cause I was too uncareful. He has too many friends that had seen me before. His friend caught me with another guy. Can't hide much cause that guy was holding my waist. L called..and asked to meet up. Initially, I really broke up with Eggie to be with L. Cause I am in love with L. There's a kind of stability that I liked. He's protective, he made me feel like I needed protecting..and best thing was, his mom loved me. But I don't know why, I chose Eggie instead. And for 3 years, I was with Eggie, and L remained single.
By the time I broke up with Eggie, L was attached. But I don't know what is it with us. We just had this mutual attraction I guess. We met up, and he hugged me. But I allowed it. It was until the next day we went out, that I remembered he was attached. He told me he's willing to break up with his gf to be with me, but it wasn't fair for her. Furthermore, I was halfway into a r/s with Kevin. =P
Me and Kevin didn't last long either, and that breakup caused me to lose alot of weight. I was suicidal. Very suicidal. My dad had to lock my window grills and hide the knives. It was that scary. I don't know how L got to know abt it, but my parents brought me to KL and L called me. He knew I was sad, and he wanted to ride out to KL to find me. He said he would even buy me my favourite lilies. I don't want to lose a friend (scared he accident), so I said no. We met up when I returned from overseas..did I mention that he ROM-ed with his gf? Before me and Kevin broke up that is. He was already legally married in the eyes of law. I lagi don't want to be the 3rd party to a marriage, but then I got drunk. We kissed. SHIT. It was just a mistake. But I did push him away when my head cleared (quite fast actually). I ignored him for a very long time.
Today..I cried cause he gave me a dream, and he dashed it. And he was the first person to create this dream. And fate just seemed to be playing with us. How can he be there for me now, when he has a kid and a wife? I don't love him now, just felt sad about the past. He regrets his actions back then, but nevertheless, it's too late. And I'm no longer the 18 year old girl who still love him. He's changed. I've changed too. It's just so sad..and it's even sadder to find out the only man who's still willing to accept me for who I am, and is willing to cry for me, is not available. I can never have the guy who will love me more than I can love him. While web-caming with him just now, he was able to open up emotions that are long forgotten...long lost. It sucked. Life kinda sucked..don't you think? Sigh.
Whatever it it, it's all in the past. I requested to be just friends. I can't love him now. And he can't love me too. =)
Merry Christmas all.
Had a chat with one of my ex (my friends would probably start asking, which one?) and we started reminiscing about the past. Our past. I told him that Huix asked me how many serious bfs I actually have (minus those play play de from the total) and I told her less than 10. In my memory, my serious bf starts from Alvin (duno die where le. Think he appear infront of me I also can't remember, that's like 12 years ago leh) and ends with the most recent, Weifeng. Scary thing is, when this ex, let's name him L (after Light!! err..nvm, disgress le), asked how many bf I had after him, I was able to name Eggie and Kevin...but suddenly, I forgot Weifeng's name. And to think that Weifeng and L used to be schoolmates. Ya..apparently I've a thing for guys that come out from that sch and that batch, cause my 3rd bf was frm that school too..and so happens that all 3 know each other!! WOW! Hahahahaha. Singapore is small lah ok.
Anyway, he started shedding tears. He's not those type to cry. Although we dated for a very, very short time (6mths), I was rather serious with him. He made me feel like a protected woman, that I could depend on him...NOT. During our relationship, we never quarreled. The only time we quarreled ended up in a breakup. Cause he was in the army, and he left me waiting for him the whole day on Sat, just to tell me at 8pm that he's not meeting me at all!! KNN. LoL. But shortly we broke up, I hooked up with Eggie. And L wanted me back...after a month of hiatus. I got back with L, not telling either bf that I'm attached. I just wanted to get back at L for treating me that way. He wouldn't even buy me flowers on Vday lor!! But he did gave me a pair of earrings with diamonds on it (which sadly, I duno where is it now). Know something? Good memories are more than bad memories. He did infact, leave a very deep impact on my life. He was the first bf that I wanted to settle down and get married to. He was the first one that we were jokingly discussing about marriage. He was ready to settle down. =)
In the end we broke up, cause I was too uncareful. He has too many friends that had seen me before. His friend caught me with another guy. Can't hide much cause that guy was holding my waist. L called..and asked to meet up. Initially, I really broke up with Eggie to be with L. Cause I am in love with L. There's a kind of stability that I liked. He's protective, he made me feel like I needed protecting..and best thing was, his mom loved me. But I don't know why, I chose Eggie instead. And for 3 years, I was with Eggie, and L remained single.
By the time I broke up with Eggie, L was attached. But I don't know what is it with us. We just had this mutual attraction I guess. We met up, and he hugged me. But I allowed it. It was until the next day we went out, that I remembered he was attached. He told me he's willing to break up with his gf to be with me, but it wasn't fair for her. Furthermore, I was halfway into a r/s with Kevin. =P
Me and Kevin didn't last long either, and that breakup caused me to lose alot of weight. I was suicidal. Very suicidal. My dad had to lock my window grills and hide the knives. It was that scary. I don't know how L got to know abt it, but my parents brought me to KL and L called me. He knew I was sad, and he wanted to ride out to KL to find me. He said he would even buy me my favourite lilies. I don't want to lose a friend (scared he accident), so I said no. We met up when I returned from overseas..did I mention that he ROM-ed with his gf? Before me and Kevin broke up that is. He was already legally married in the eyes of law. I lagi don't want to be the 3rd party to a marriage, but then I got drunk. We kissed. SHIT. It was just a mistake. But I did push him away when my head cleared (quite fast actually). I ignored him for a very long time.
Today..I cried cause he gave me a dream, and he dashed it. And he was the first person to create this dream. And fate just seemed to be playing with us. How can he be there for me now, when he has a kid and a wife? I don't love him now, just felt sad about the past. He regrets his actions back then, but nevertheless, it's too late. And I'm no longer the 18 year old girl who still love him. He's changed. I've changed too. It's just so sad..and it's even sadder to find out the only man who's still willing to accept me for who I am, and is willing to cry for me, is not available. I can never have the guy who will love me more than I can love him. While web-caming with him just now, he was able to open up emotions that are long forgotten...long lost. It sucked. Life kinda sucked..don't you think? Sigh.
Whatever it it, it's all in the past. I requested to be just friends. I can't love him now. And he can't love me too. =)
Merry Christmas all.
Friday, December 4, 2009
Analysis of My Chinese Name
有自我個性，喜歡獨樹一格、與眾不同的
交際手脕非常好，個性活躍，是個公關型高手
對於有興趣的事很有研究精神
口才很好，說得話常常讓人覺得很有道理
思緒常常用跳的，讓人搞不懂你在想什麼
外表溫柔內心倔強的人，內心嚴重的缺乏安全感
佔有慾會顯得比較強烈，常常會不安
事情會自己全部攬起來做，比較勞碌命
有時太愛計較，讓自己很累
個性比較保守，做事相對也比較安份
Just in case you don't understand, like me, this is the translation (thank you Florence!!)
have own personality, like to be very special and different from the crowd
good at socialising, active character and good PR person
study very deeply into things that interest u
outspoken and ppl ususally think tt what u said makes sense
very random way of thinkings that makes ppl find it difficult to understand ur thoughts
gentle on the outside but stubborn on the inside. a strong sense of unsecurity inside u
very possesive and easily feels insecured
will tend u do everything by yourself causing ur life to be very tiring (keep working and working and working)
very calulative at times which cause u to be tired
conservative personality therefore causing you to do things in a way that do things like very systematically
Well, in some ways...almost all are correct. It's so freaky! OK..this is MY translation from what I understand...
有自我個性，喜歡獨樹一格、與眾不同的
Has self-individuality, like being the only one or being unique (quite true..i like unique things)
交際手脕非常好，個性活躍，是個公關型高手
Don't understand the first few words, bubbly personality, don't understand the last few words
對於有興趣的事很有研究精神
Will tend to research and find out more about things I'm interested in (definitely!!)
口才很好，說得話常常讓人覺得很有道理
Eloquent, and people will find that the things I say are logical and makes sense
思緒常常用跳的，讓人搞不懂你在想什麼
Very random in thinking, people usually can't understand what I'm thinking of
外表溫柔內心倔強的人，內心嚴重的缺乏安全感
Soft on the outside very stubborn on the inside, lacking of insecurity
佔有慾會顯得比較強烈，常常會不安
Possesive, mostly restless
事情會自己全部攬起來做，比較勞碌命
Will tend to do things myself, tend to have a worker's life
有時太愛計較，讓自己很累
Sometimes too calculative, making myself very tired
個性比較保守，做事相對也比較安份
Conservative personality, therefore do not break rules when doing things
Just showed this to Erin, and even Erin also say it's so me!! Cannot let mummy see, wait she go change my name. Hahahahaha....enjoy ba. Exam's in 1 wk. =) BYE!!! *Poof*
交際手脕非常好，個性活躍，是個公關型高手
對於有興趣的事很有研究精神
口才很好，說得話常常讓人覺得很有道理
思緒常常用跳的，讓人搞不懂你在想什麼
外表溫柔內心倔強的人，內心嚴重的缺乏安全感
佔有慾會顯得比較強烈，常常會不安
事情會自己全部攬起來做，比較勞碌命
有時太愛計較，讓自己很累
個性比較保守，做事相對也比較安份
Just in case you don't understand, like me, this is the translation (thank you Florence!!)
have own personality, like to be very special and different from the crowd
good at socialising, active character and good PR person
study very deeply into things that interest u
outspoken and ppl ususally think tt what u said makes sense
very random way of thinkings that makes ppl find it difficult to understand ur thoughts
gentle on the outside but stubborn on the inside. a strong sense of unsecurity inside u
very possesive and easily feels insecured
will tend u do everything by yourself causing ur life to be very tiring (keep working and working and working)
very calulative at times which cause u to be tired
conservative personality therefore causing you to do things in a way that do things like very systematically
Well, in some ways...almost all are correct. It's so freaky! OK..this is MY translation from what I understand...
有自我個性，喜歡獨樹一格、與眾不同的
Has self-individuality, like being the only one or being unique (quite true..i like unique things)
交際手脕非常好，個性活躍，是個公關型高手
Don't understand the first few words, bubbly personality, don't understand the last few words
對於有興趣的事很有研究精神
Will tend to research and find out more about things I'm interested in (definitely!!)
口才很好，說得話常常讓人覺得很有道理
Eloquent, and people will find that the things I say are logical and makes sense
思緒常常用跳的，讓人搞不懂你在想什麼
Very random in thinking, people usually can't understand what I'm thinking of
外表溫柔內心倔強的人，內心嚴重的缺乏安全感
Soft on the outside very stubborn on the inside, lacking of insecurity
佔有慾會顯得比較強烈，常常會不安
Possesive, mostly restless
事情會自己全部攬起來做，比較勞碌命
Will tend to do things myself, tend to have a worker's life
有時太愛計較，讓自己很累
Sometimes too calculative, making myself very tired
個性比較保守，做事相對也比較安份
Conservative personality, therefore do not break rules when doing things
Just showed this to Erin, and even Erin also say it's so me!! Cannot let mummy see, wait she go change my name. Hahahahaha....enjoy ba. Exam's in 1 wk. =) BYE!!! *Poof*
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